The glorious pain of summer.

I don't know why this happens, but it has happened consistently for possibly around 2-3 summers. I tend to act pretty assholic to most of my friends (all two of them) at the time. It usually peaks around August, but it does develop itself a bit earlier. However on both occasions people had gotten fat on me, perhaps the summer's equation of more exposure of heavenly bodies of skimpy bikinis as opposed to the bulky winter clothes of winter has left more critical of seeing fat people.

The revelation of a fat person among the skinny is hard hitting sometimes especially to person as shallow as me. I didn't expect this to happen to me, but I suppose primordial expectations has outweighed my common sense and good will. The reality of the situation is that I need someone new to spend my time with, a replacement to a few of my friends but just as close. The problem is I would end up as clingly as my friend to this new friend and perhaps leave me al alone in the end.

My friend is being an idiot and I think I'm beginning to hate him becasuse he is fat. he manage to lose no weight and god....it's all my fault really. I never thought I would come to a point where I actually hate fat people, but I guess it's true now. Although it could be the fact that Rob has gotten less interesting. I mean he's become a fucking nerd to tell the truth. A really big fat one. I mean he works all the time, plays games and watches movie in his free time and apparently everytime he wants me over he said "Do you wnat to play smash bros etc. etc. it's truly beginning to piss me off to some degree, but hey..what can you do right?

It's pretty painful to tell the truth, and I'm feeling the same thing about letting him go...but the thing is we are part of a trio. If I let him go as a friend, then there stands the chance that I would lose my other close friend who's been more interesting because he has a GF. That aspect has made it much more interesing to behold.